Card: Five of Swords – from The Fountain Tarot by Jonathan Saiz.
“Tainted Victory – Victories get polluted when your personal integrity is compromised. Nobody actually wins in this scenario, and the backlash can be horrible. Make sure you are paying attention to the whole picture. Broaden your vision and honour your principles. It will pay off in the long run.”
Message from Erin: This past week was a bit of a stressful one for me. It was very busy at work, and in the midst of the chaos, I got into an argument with one of my coworkers. I really hate conflict, and it was challenging for me to keep my anger under wraps. Even though I felt I was in the right, and had to stand up for myself and other coworkers, I did not feel like I came up a winner in my battle. It feels awful, for me, to argue with someone.
However, despite the fact that I didn’t “win”, I gained some understanding of myself and other people. The truth can be harsh and uncomfortable. And my truth is really important to me. I don’t need to be right all the time, but I need things to be just and fair. If someone isn’t being fair or just, I need to stand up to that. That’s my truth. I am willing to be the loser in a scenario where the truth needs to be told.
And so, this week I want to reflect on this card. It’s okay to go into battle and come out the loser, especially if it’s for something or someone that you feel is very important. But ask yourself: is this battle worth it? Is this the sword you want to fall on? Are you willing to lose? What is the price you are willing to pay?
In the grander scheme of everything, when when I’m looking at all aspects of my life, I can ask myself: is this worth it? Am I willing to fail or succeed for this? Discernment – it’s a very useful skill to learn. I hope to gain this wisdom. Maybe you want it too.
I love you,