I have recently come to terms with the fact that I have trust issues. Having said that, I can’t quite pinpoint what exactly the trust issues are. I seem to trust some people without question, and then I don’t trust other people for no reason at all. Isn’t that funny? My trust has been inconsistent. The worst trust issue I have is that I haven’t always trusted myself, and that has gotten me into all kinds of trouble in the past – ignoring my inner wisdom and listening to others instead.
The thing is, I don’t really know if I can fix my trust in other people. The only thing I can really work on is my self-trust. Self-trust, for me, is the same as my trust in the Universe. I see myself as a microcosm of the Great Divine. Therefore, when I learn to trust myself nothing else matters. A big part of trusting myself means trusting my inner-guidance. It means no more self-doubt.
What does self-trust look like? Self-trust means: No longer second guessing myself; listening to and following through with my intuitive thoughts and guidance; not allowing other people in my life to sway me away from my own inner-guidance; being my authentic self at all times; knowing that the guidance that I am being given on a daily basis comes from a place of Pure Source Love and Light; knowing that no matter what happens to me I am going to be alright (even if I died); believing that I deserve to be happy, healthy and loved; knowing that God loves me and provides for me everything that I could possibly ever want; believing in myself 24/7, 100% of the time, without wavering. I know in my heart of hearts that when I trust and believe in myself, everything always falls into place and works out for me. I am the only person on this planet that knows what is really best for me.
I am not saying that we should not seek the guidance and wisdom of others. I find it so helpful sometimes to ask people what they think about things, and to read up on issues I am struggling with, but ultimately the answers are always found within. When something someone says, or does, doesn’t resonate with me, it is super important for me to pay attention to that moment and to trust myself.
How many times have I encountered situations in my life where I hear that inner-voice telling me to walk the other way or to do something and I haven’t listened? When I listen to that voice, I have always been grateful that I have. When I don’t listen to that voice, I have regretted it every single time.
Here is what I have learned: That inner-voice, inner-wisdom, intuition, whatever you choose to call it – that is your heart speaking to you – your heart is your direct connection to Divine Love. When I ignore my inner wisdom, I am ignoring God’s divine messages to me. Another thing I have learned is discernment: divine guidance does not come as fear. Fear is the ego. Divine wisdom is always with love. If it isn’t loving, it isn’t divine.
It isn’t enough for me to just love myself, I also find it just as important to trust myself. Or perhaps, trusting myself is one of the most important acts in loving myself.
As Toucan Sam would say: “Follow your nose, it always knows.”